Rhonda Anne Finn - オンライン･メモリアル･ウェブサイト

Here we go again another year down, so much has changed but yet nothing at all...I wake up everyday hoping for the very best but it seems that the very be is simply unattainable at this point nothing seems to really measure up at all anymore. Trying so hard to make some big steps in the right direction but i just can't seem to find solid ground where i can stand completely happy and confident. When this new road began everyone said that things will get better maybe even easier, but two years later that is really just not the case. I guess if you stop to take a look at all the postive things that have happened in the last two years there are a fair amount of them. For one Dad and I are closer then ever. Its actually really nice to finally understand him and come together with him and just be a family. Hes really been there for me in his own way. As i have for him. Him and i are managing. Matt and I are on a new level and he really seems to be working towards his own life the one you would have wanted for him, i am really proud of him mom. Your dreams for him at this point in time seem to be coming true. I know he would eventually come around although the road is still many miles long. I am happy for him. And where ever you are i know you are to. I can honestly say that with each day that goes be i find someone else that loves you. You really made your mark here. With that being said secondly i really wanna thank you for all the wonderful friends you made in your short life. Each friend each persons life that you have touched has reached out and touched me i the last 2 years and with that meeting has brought a piece of your heart back to me. I wanna thank you for Shelly she is your reason your brutal honesty and your friendship that i miss. I wanna thank you for patti watson..her house her home and her heart is a warm place to land when i need somewhere to just be me and feel at home i dunno what i would do without her and kevin. Cathy, kim, shelly, trish..those girls are just the best feeling i know i am not you but when i am with them i feel like i am just soo comfortable like i am out in your element in your happy place surronded with your happiness....like nothing can happen to me i always hope you show up but i know you are there to...Patti and Al have welcomed me into there home time and time again...its like a safe place where dad and i can go to just be what we are...thank you so much for them to mom....looking back reflecting thinking wishing hopeing...i just wish i could have you back....I know that no day will be complete with out you here in my life...i often wonder what you would say if you came back to me...i think the worse days are yet to come but i really am glad that somewhere deep down inside of my is your strength and resiliance..and it will over everything else shine through when it really needs to...i guess i just want to finish by saying i love you with all my heart no amount of time will dull my love for you or the pain i feel of your loss...please stay with me love my hold me dance in my dreams and guide me through all my days...miss you so much Ma ...i just wanna scream out your name and have you come and hold me ...i would give the whole world for that...love you love you love you love miss you miss you misssssssssssssssssss you....Muah

Well another year and another Relay behind us! It was quite wet this year as you well know! I  was really hoping that you and my Mom could've held the rain off for us! We had a couple new faces this year which is nice! I know that you would've of loved doing the Relay the sense of hope and connection to complete strangers is awesome! Although there are defintely moments of saddness there are more moments of hope! Hey did you like seeing your self on that big screen lol! I know you would not have liked that at all too bad at least Lyns picked a good picture! I forgot to put my Moms name on hers (too much going on in my head I guess) but it was still up there too! Miss you two so much some days! Things are tought for everyone right now and tempers are short but I'm sure if we all stick together we can get through this too! Well better start planning for next years Relay we have to  really work on sprucing up our site as a team! Miss you Love you XXOO

 

Hey you!! Had a dream the other night that the 2 of us were somewhere swimming. LOL We both know that would never happen as I have never seen you in a pool!! But it was a great dream & then the alarm clock went off. I will be visting you sometime this weekend hoping Kerri will hold off having her baby.. I will bring Sadie & sit a chat for awhile & maybe have a drink while I'm there. Sometime though, I will have to paint Michael's old room for the new pool room. Doing glazing & not quite sure how to do it but I figured the guys might not care what it looks like but I will. Just listening to 1 Headlight that Lynds has on here, as you & I loved that song & still do. Going to do you pond sometime soon as well, if the weather gets nicer out & stops raining. Thinking of you every day & Miss you. Love always your Bookend.. XOXOXOXOX

 Can't help but think of you with Mother's Day coming up. It was special to have someone to share the day with who had lost their Mom too! Now your not here and it really hurts and makes me feel lonely! I guess Lyns knows those feeling though. There is just something so sad about not having someone to say Happy Mother's Day too! I miss you very much and some days are difficult but we carry on doing the best we can. One thing that holds us together is you it is amazing how central you were to our lives and how off kilter those lives are now! We try our best to make you proud of us that we are getting on but truth is somedays we are just existing not really living! But I know we will be okay cause you (and my Mom)  are looking out for us now. Missing you so very much wishing for one more day to hear your laughter. See you  on Sunday!

 Luv U Miss U

XXXOOO

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb....

 

Mom, with each day that passes i miss you more and more. I truly knew it wouldn't be this easy. But i suppose after all this i have one huge thing to thank you for....and that thing is the incredible strength that you gave me....I don't know where i would be if you didn't teach me to keep pushing through....you always told me that there is always tommorrow and for us there wasn't tomorrow and thats not okay...but your strength gets me out of bed each morning...It is the scariest reality each day waking up with out you....But i just want you to know that every move i make every step i take every road i cross every decision that i make every everything that i do from the day i lost you is for you...i want to make you sooo proud mom....that is what i live for from now on...what would you tell me to do ...what would you want for me...i know you always wanted me to do great things and i promise you that i will... for you mom! I LOVE YOU SOO MUCH....it is definately an uphill battle but i promise to fight until the end...Love always your little Girl xoxoxo