As Kevin & I were driving to the cottage there was something wrong! I was sitting in the front seat where you always sat when you came with us. I brought a book with me just in case but i didn't even open it. Having a morning coffee was not the same either but I got through it. My feet never got done as they always did when you were there with Lynda & I. I knew they weren't going to get done as you were not there to make this happen!! I lost it one night as you know but I knew you were there with me as big gusts of wind came up around me sitting on the front porch. Hopefully, somehow this will get easier but won't happen for a long time as I come on here every morning. Love u always Rhonda.. Your name comes up in mostly everything I say these days. My best friend ever as u already know this & we all miss you so much.. XOXOX
Hi Rhonda…I sit here feeling strong, thinking I can write you a note without tears but no such luck and I haven’t even started yet. I have been here everyday, this is my way of being close to you. There are no words to tell you how much you meant to me and how much I miss you. You have been saying “Hello” to me for about 10 days, the way you always said it when I came by your home or you answered the phone. You are driving me crazy!! But I never want to forget the way you said Hello. I was not able to go to your back door last Thursday; I could not bare the fact of look in the window and not finding you there. So I sat at the table by the driveway. One day I know you will give me the strength to go up the stairs and open the door. I will always be thankful for the gift of your friendship and the special time we spent together from April onwards. I keep telling myself that one day we will find the reason why you were taken from us. It better be a good one. Love you lots and lots and I miss you so much it still hurts.
Well Rhonda got through Dar & Gary's wedding Saturday. I could feel your presence at those moments I was faltering thank you! I couldn't help but remeber when Ron I got married and how much you held me up that day too! Sure do feel lonely sometimes but then you seem to be there! Thanks for looking our for all of us we need it! You were always the strong one even though you didn't think so at times!
Talk to you soon I'm sure!
Luv Shell
